Becoming more of the person you were born to be is what it is all about. "The Seed," Finding Purpose and Happiness in Life and Work (Jon Gordon)
I realized that I had been playing the victim. I got sucked in and didn't even see it. I had spent some time blaming my day job for not growing. A little history here. The company I was formerly with got acquired. When this happened, I was at the top of my game, had made a name for myself, and loved everything about the company and my career of choice. The acquisition did not go so well (surprise, surprise) and as a result, business slowed down tremendously and I was left with little to work on, to strive for, to excel in. Yes, thankfully, I still had my job. But it's not my style to "just work for the paycheck." There has to be some meaning and motivation for what I'm doing.
When the acquisition happened and changes were at a high, I knew things were out of my control. I decided to sit back, keep my head down, and let things play out as they should. I had some time on my hands and focused on myself. That's when I decided to launch my website. The idea came to me, I committed to it, and executed. I launched it on April 12th, 2017, which happened to be on my 35th birthday. This gave me such a huge boost of confidence, of purpose, of meaning. It gave me what I needed to stay positive through the unknown of my day job. This website got me out of my comfort zone, I learned new things, and as a result, I grew and while I may not have had any accolades from my day job to talk about, I was able to speak about this personal accomplishment.
Work started to get busy again and the type of work had changed. Since volume picked up I got pulled away from my lifeline to positivity - my website. I got sucked into the vortex of my day job. Not feeling in alignment, more work, still feeling flat, and back to working on one fire drill after another. I had lost sight of what the act of launching the website really did for me. It kept me at a high vibrational level because I was growing, learning, and achieving something. I have since lifted my head again.
There is no reason why I should stop at the website. I can look to accomplish something new (non-work related) to develop myself --discovering my unique note, and finding new ways to be of service. This way I'm not solely relying on my day job for fulfillment. Even though the work situation has improved tremendously, I am no longer holding on to it so tightly.
So what will my next challenge be? What will I accomplish next? I'm not sure at the moment but I'll tell you one thing, I'll definitely be meditating on it.
Cheers to you, to our lives, and to creating our own fun and opportunities!
With love,
KCG